Okay, so, after a week away in the Ozarks in a little rustic cabin - where washing a pan in the rain was a fulfilling kind of work, I'm adjusting to being back into the sensory overload of every day life. It's about that time when there are dishes to wash, and the kids are taking showers and need to be hurried along. Thoughts of going back to work after two weeks off have been creeping into my head all day, and I'm feeling anxious. There's camping gear that needs to go back into the basement, washed clothes that need to be put away, and a walk that Ruben and I want to take. I feel busy. And I'm posting this anyway.
Having time away gave me time with my thoughts. It was a weird combination of not having personal space (a one room cabin with five other people), yet having the quiet and the slower pace that allows you to somehow focus and have a sort of "alone time" without being alone. I bought the book "The Happiness Project" and am through about April in reading about a year-long project taken on by Gretchen Rubin. It's inspired me and overwhelmed me all at the same time, but it got me thinking. Cool.
I want to focus on what's important, and be less stressed. I decided to check my work email, and found 24 emails waiting for me. I'm proud to say I deleted the spam without reading it, responded to the couple of important ones, and now don't have to open a billion messages first thing tomorrow morning. Three of the messages were from zenhabits. One of them was the inspiration for this. Leo talks about starting his blog when he didn't have time. I never have time. That's what it feels like, but I do.
This week made me realize that my time is sucked up by all kinds of busy craziness, but is it meaningful? Gretchen says something in her book about days being long, but years being short. How true! I want to pay more attention to how I am using my days. The kids are growing up fast, years are flying by, and at the end of it all, I want to know that I did more than just go through the motions.
Busy? Cool. I better do something. I am adding this to my "Do it now" mantra. If I feel too busy, I'll just do things anyway. Probably easier said than done, but it's one excuse I'm going to work on putting away. It's amazing how little time certain tasks take. In reality, I am a master procrastinator. I think I'll be less stressed if I just do crap and stop putting it off. I am contemplating time limits, as well. Seeing as I am very Dory-ish (as in Finding Nemo....the forgetful, distractible fish), I am hoping it will help to try to keep things short. Check work email? Yes. Let it take over the rest of the night, and try to do everything that comes to mind as I read each email? NO.
Ah, yes, so Dory me... it's time to end this. Hopefully by doing more, but in less time, and making sure most of the stuff I'm doing is meaningful and important, makes a difference. :)
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